Am i a fascist ?
Do i scare you, or do i suffocate you ?

Muốn khóc quá hahahaa.

Don't joke about those things because i entirely believed them.
Entirely.

bon iver

It's just beautiful
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Đi giữa đêm, vừa đi vừa tưởng tượng tiếng nhạc phát ra xung quanh...

Mình thích mơ cả đám tự nhiên bị giam giữ các thứ xong cuối cùng tìm đc cách thoát ra 1 cách ngoạn mục. Cả đám bị giam đi chứ có 1 mình thì cũng cô đơn.

Lần này ko bị đánh gì cả mà bị bọn nó búng hạt gì nhỏ nhỏ trắng trắng vào người, rát với đau như chó. Con Su là đứa tìm đc cách thoát thân cứu 2 con còn lại, sau đó 3 con chạy leo lên mái nhà. Từ lúc đó ko hiểu sao còn có mỗi mình mình ở trển. Đúng là mơ.
Mơ đc giữa chừng đang đến đoạn gay cấn thì mình tỉnh dậy nên phải cố ngủ tiếp để mơ cho xong luôn.

another dream

Them again.
This time they sat next to each other, with the other 2 guys, talking.
I stood from afar looking at them.

Stabbing.

a dream

We were on a bus and sat next to each other talking, smiling shyly...
I wanted to hold your hand.
I couldn't.
But then i spoiled the whole thing by my own silliness and selfishness.

You were always out there in the rain, waiting for me patiently, while i was still inside busy hesitating and fearing...

But it was the past, now you got your chance, take it and fly...

nirrimi (by matt)

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What a beautiful girl she is.
The photographer-couple and their unborn child are in saigon now.

died during this song

Can I meet someone,

and be in love again?

Not likely

One thing,

One thing that I can never tell what it is,

to come to love

It's so lonely,

as it appears

After love is over,

the world is over

All that shined for me, 

lose all the light

Everyone meets a person, 

never to forget

I can't even remember me, in us.
I was just a faint line, a blurred memory...
No wonder you can't.

you're so pretty:)
Aerie's anorak 

"By far, by far."

‎"What i am to you is not real.
What i am to you, you do not need.
What i am to you is not what you mean to me.
You give me miles and miles of mountains, and i'll ask for the sea."

I don't know who this belongs to, but i found it here.

welcome home

Hello world !
No... Hello world in my private blogspot (haha) ! I'm back home, finally. Long time huh?

Stayed there for almost a week and it was fun and boring and crazy and weird, yea, all that. There i saw love, hatefulness, depression, desperation, diligence, helplessness, and felt the heat bursting on my skin and sweat wetting my t-shirt.
I slept at my baby cousin's room on her floor mattress most of the time, and sometimes went to my other bigger cousin's place too.
Got lots of mosquito bites.
The sweet soup there is always the best (at the best price).

All i did there was eating, sleeping, toilet things, reading The God of small things and looking up for the new words.
I guess i'm not used to it, to being far away from home and everyone else (well, my people i mean), because i'm a closed person, a closed-barred door, not that i love them that much... I don't know, do i love anyone? Me? No !!! You must be kidding, if i was my own lover i wouldn't so often hate and pity me for what i am like this.

I missed home like crazy, the 2 crazy girls, mom dad, HBO, Star Movies, the computer, the internet, the house... And him.
Dreamed of them again. They were sitting at my front door talking and i was too scared to go out there and say hello to them, so i went away with Susu later, to an old-book store and found a very good book there. I woke up right after the dream, stayed awake for a little while, then got back to sleep. A little bit of a nightmare. Every day and night i waited for that one thing but of course it didn't come, did not come.


Went home by bus with 2 other heavy plastic bags stuffed with bananas and guavas and gac fruits. Exhausted but so happy to be home.
Got soaked in the heavy rain when going out buying fried banana cakes with Susu, we were entirely crazy. :)

That's it, my trip.

Chị cũng muốn khóc mày ạ, nhưng éo hiểu sao mặt chị cứ nhăn nhăn chứ ko khóc đc, thà như quả cam xịt nước lại hay hơn, khóc cho toét mắt toét mũi toét mồm luôn ấy.
Lúc buồn khóc mà ko khóc đc thì khổ lắm, thế nên mày cứ khóc đi, chị ko cản đâu.

Khóc xong cả chị cả mày đi ngủ nhé, mơ đc gì hay hay thì mơ, rồi mai dậy sớm ăn mì tôm, chiều thì đu xe buýt về BH, tối nếu có tiền thì đi ăn hủ tiếu dạo nữa. Những lúc đấy chị thề sẽ ko tự chửi mình là đồ vô dụng, là đồ đáng chết mà cứ ham sống... Mày cũng phải vui nhé.

Mi cũng chẳng là gì đâu, nên đừng có vớ vẩn nữa.


Ngủ từ 10h tối đến 11h sáng, tởm thật, chắc là mơ nhiều quá...
À chiều nay mưa to, trời đen thui gió ào ào như bão ấy, mình che chắn các thứ cho bọn gà xong thì đứng nhìn.
Lúc chở con Y đi về trời vẫn chưa mưa nên tranh thủ đạp xe 1 vòng cho mát người, nếu ngày nào cũng mát mẻ và đường ko nhiều xe đến thế thì hay phải biết.
Mai đi BH với con Y, muốn đi cả VT mà éo có tiền.

Mấy hôm nay lại chán đời rồi... Haha, mình đúng là quân ăn hại, toàn ở nhà ăn ăn ngủ ngủ xong lại than này nọ.
Thế giới giờ đang phát điên rồi, ko biết khi nào thì mình sẽ nổ tung đây, chắc cũng sắp /:)
Ờ, nổ tung mà vẫn ko chịu chết cho mới là vấn đề.

"If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you
really love the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second."  

Johnny Depp

it's your day dear

Happy birthday...
Sorry i couldn't get you anything, and for all those awful things i've done, too.
You deserve so much better than that. You'll be very happy, ok?

Well, i miss you.
alot

I know i should have been more decisive, but can't help going online everyday hoping to see your offlines or you there. I'm afraid i can't keep my mouth shut, no, my hands immovable.

little poor thing /:)

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she's back now :)

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I'm at ease.

“I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze. But I think maybe it's both. Maybe both are happening at the same time.”

(Forrest Gump in Forrest Gump)

Vãi thật, vừa cạy rớt cái phím ra và cũng vừa gắn nó vào lại.
Hên hên...

Seeing them together is heart-warming.
Go go IT-couple, haha.

Tưởng hay lắm, hóa ra.

I did some thinking, about its all goods and bads.
It was hard to fall asleep then.

Baby cousin is coming tomorrow morning, yay !!!!!!!
Really dying for a trip to the beach with her and my other girls.

the only lovely thing of this fuckin' day ♥

"14 weeks in auckland, new zealand. papa's hand and mama's belly."
n + m

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I'm just a kid, nothing more, nothing less.

sadly beautiful

Dear love,
i never wanted you to go
but i'd be the last to let you know

N

Words and image by Nam Quản from his Flickr & FB

Freaking hungry...

'd better go to bed now.

You know, you occupy very little space of his world.
Yes, that's it.

450D & 50 1.8 & my favorite girl
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