Mình bị xui hay sao nhỉ? Sao phải là chiều thứ ba???


It's the end of May, June is coming soon...
and July won't be long after that.
I'm waiting for it.
:)

"Could one go back to being bitter after having a taste of love?"

(via katelizabeth)

Was run after by a big dog this afternoon.
Damn it was frightening!

just for fun

Có 1 lần lên số 8 đi về buổi trưa, lúc mới nhảy lên xe ngồi chưa mát đít thì thấy 2 tên này ngồi trước đang tranh cãi về hướng nắng. Lúc đầu nắng chiếu từ bên phải, tên thứ nhất bảo nắng bên phải, dù vậy tên thứ hai lại bảo nắng bên trái đó thề luôn mày ko tin! Cãi 1 hồi chả đứa nào chịu tin đứa nào nên 2 đứa quyết định ngồi tách ra, nói chung số 1 tin nắng bên phải thì ngồi hàng bên trái và số 2 thì ngược lại (Thật ra chúng nó tính ngồi găm ghế, lỡ nắng bên tao thì tao còn chạy qua ngồi với mày đc, kiểu thế:D)
Đi thêm 1 hồi cũng vẫn nắng bên phải, nên số 1 hí hửng: "Nghe tao là quyết định đúng đắn!"
Nhưng thật ra ngay sau đó nắng chuyển sang bên trái, thế là số 1 thua + bị bê thui:D

Mình có "vẽ" 1 bức tranh minh họa luôn đây:)
Haha vãi 2 tên đó tới giờ. Khá xúc động vì vẫn còn 2 bạn trai biết "lo lắng cho làn da" của mình>:D
Hôm đó thấy thế mình với con kia tính mở mồm "chia sẻ thông tin" luôn để 2 bạn khỏi khổ sở nữa, nhưng cuối cùng im im vì cũng khoái ngồi nghe 2 thằng này cãi nhau + chen vào nó lại chửi cho:D
Anyway we're professional at noticing the sun's location>:)

Chán chán nên hồi tưởng tí cho vui.

yes, this is what i go to sleep with right now. Not exactly my case, but....

Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked?
You know, and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spent on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

Quiet - Rachael Yamagata

"I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears on my eyes"

Scared...

It's killing me...

I've never felt like this for the past ten months, and for all these years.

"What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same?"

quiet

"All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything to change when I leave"

Rachael Yamagata's :)

Thank you...finally...

Saoirse Ronan:)

I can't ask for more.
I know...

And this feeling is driving me crazy.
I hate it. I hate people pretending, i hate me pretending.

In a fucking terrible mood now.

As i went downstairs last midnight i smelled the smell of 10 months ago.
It made me sick.
And listening to "Don't forget me" made me sick too, that's what i listened to everyday after the break-up.
/:)

If it was love, real love... then, where did it go?

Lại ... nằm vừa học bài bức tường berlin vừa khóc khóc.
Such a crazy bitch!
/:)

In love with Skinny love and this Birdy girl.

♥s of the day

“I’m sorry I couldn’t watch you grow up babygirl” - Kurt Cobain

(Source : chasqui, via emilyrosebarnes)

"I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face, they don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it." — Waitress (via quotewhore) (via clavicola)

Had another crazy dream this morning:

-There was a weird-looking guy who was crying, he hated the government and thought that they killed the hero.

-A day wandering with him, fun but weird as usual:)

-ANA calendar came out in all sizes... how great it was.

-I was in something like a CIA group, i lay hiding under chairs and tables with the others with a gun in my hand. Kinda creepy.
Girl's generation saved us by singing Wonder girls' song (haha)


Call log has been deleted.
Yes, i have problem with that.
Can't see him anymore...

Love (slightly) veined hands.
That's why i love his hands, and arms...
and furtively looked at them for a couple of times:)

What's wrong with the bone in my forefinger by the way?! It hurts.
Is it bone cancer?

Should i eat it? Hope that i won't.
But part of me knows that i surely will.
Haha...

3 ngày nghỉ kết thúc tại đây.
Tạm biệt...

Chán chán... nghe Beck đi cho nó xuống hẳn.

Dạo này ăn mặn kinh quá nên sưng cả nướu:D

Tụi 12 sắp thi tới nơi rồi nhể, mình qua cái bận ấy lâu rồi nên cũng chả thèm để ý nữa, chỉ mong con Y điên qua đc cửa này.
Nhắc đến lại thấy bệnh bệnh, mà giờ đi ngang qua cái trường cũng thấy "xao xuyến"... Bọn trong lớp thì ko có gì đặc biệt, FB nhan nhản ấy mà, chỉ nhớ đám con Tôm, mấy hôm thể dục đang học thì trời mưa thế là tèn tén ten đc nghỉ, những sáng T2 đến trường trong lúc chờ con D. gửi xe chỉ biết đứng ở chỗ tập trung của lớp nhìn xung quanh, ko thì ngồi bệt xuống đất cố nhắm mắt lại ko nghĩ đến chuyện mình đang ở trường. Mình đã rất ghét đi học, hê hê.
Nhưng mình ghét cấp 3 vì lí do khác nữa... mà cũng chả phải ghét, có lẽ là sợ.

can this dream last forever?

Went on a bus-tour again this afternoon. I'm kinda addicted now.
I even took the bus which led to Lg An... ah yeas... it's her hometown, her land.
It's hard to utter it, her name, or their high school's...
Ok shut up now, stop it!
Anyway, the "tour" was good.

Watched All about Steve hours ago and it was a "cute" movie:D I think Bradley Cooper is a fuckin' funny paranoid in this movie, i normally don't like his "playboy and sexy" role in others.
I'm really the pessimist type right? Completely contrary to Mary Horowitz:)

Turn back time... had a good dream this morning/:)
It's something that is nice in dreams but makes no sense in reality.
It would be a lie if it happens now.
You would never do that/:)
Haha.

Have been waiting and there's nothing at all, so far...
/:)
Accept it girl.

Till sunday...
Take care of yourself, ok?

Went out with Susu today.

While i was in the bus 7 i saw the scene of the accident, there lay a bike, blood and stuff that i couldn't clearly see, i was too scared to look at it.
Then i thought about the dead girl's mom and family, they were waiting for her to go home, and she was on her way home when it happened, about how things could happen to you unpredictably, and about me losing my loved ones someday.
Then i felt like crying.
Susu has once said that the most painful death is the death caused by a traffic accident.
It seems right.

Took the bus 145 after that while Susu had her tooth pulled out.
He used to sit on that bus too, so i tried to imagine how he looked out the window at the street, "did you see what i see now?", and how he rode his nouvo to school, blah blah blah.
I went pass the route i made every sunday night about a year ago. Sure it made me think of the past and i was in deep shit again.

Chạy nhảy hôm qua tới bữa nay mới chịu đau, kì nào thi thể dục xong hôm sau đứa nào cũng rên đau chưn/:)
Bố má đi chưa đc 1 ngày đã đua nhau gọi về, hơi mắc cười, haha. Don't worry we're just fine!:)
Hôm nay trời đẹp, toàn mây, mát mẻ nhưng ko bị dính mưa>:) Chiều về còn thấy CNG đi ngược lại khi nghĩ rằng em nó đã chết, lâu lắm rồi ko thấy mặt mũi đâu.
Sáng mai dậy sớm coi Jungle fish tập cuối:)


It was a May night... when i realized it was wrong.


Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Got 6 chocopies from him,
and i won't eat it, i swear.
Urgh...
Uttered her name, too. It was awkward/:)
Haha, he gave me chocopies today? On the 10th? It's sadly funny...

You didn't do it because you were drunk, you did it because you wanted to.
-What do you always call me...?
. b...?
- yea...b, right? So i think we should let things be that way from now on.
Her birthday.
Torturing time...


Mom and dad are going tomorrow morning, hope they'd have lots of fun:)

My legs are falling apart very soon.

growing up is painful

Ok, here it is.
the 10th month...
/:)

Time does fly, right?

Maybe it's a completely different kind now.
And that's what i'm scared of.

Ăn chè thay cơm.
Blended coconut chỗ này có 6k, mà cũng ngon và nhiều:)

Sáng đạp xe đi 1 mình nên phóng vèo vèo sướng tê người.
Chả biết bị con khỉ gì mà đau chân, mai kt thể dục chạy tổng hợp các thứ xong chắc lết về nhà. Vãi nhất cái màn kt chạy này, thể nào cũng nhũn như chuối/:|
Nóng phát ói đi đc, cút đi thằng Nóng.

Từ hôm qua tới hôm nay lại ngồi nhớ TSN, NSL và cái thời bé ngu dại.

Ko nhớ đc gì nhiều hồi 3 tuổi trở xuống, chỉ nghe con Su nói là nó ko thích và "chả có tí mảy may quan tâm gì" tới mình + con điên kia, mới đầu nghe cũng buồn buồn tủi tủi, nhưng thật ra có ma nào thích đc đứa nghịch xé toe sách vở của mình làm mình bị ông thầy và bố đánh đâu.
Cứ nghĩ tới đó thì ko còn thấy tủi nữa:)

Mình từng là 1 đứa trẻ hư sao:)

I miss it, rain in early morning of schooldays...

Creepy silence.

Skipped german class today.
Why?
'Cause i hadn't finished the shitty homework, 'cause i was late and sick of going there.

We just sat on the bus for hours, then got off the bus, then got in another bus again. It was hot and i felt so disgusted i just wanted to go home and took a cool bath (yea if i've had a bathtub). And while sitting looking out the window my mind was filled with the endless loneliness.

I know looking at them only hurts me terribly, but ...
Trying to torture yourself huh?:)

Drinking Vixumilk's coffee milk, my new sweetheart!

It wasn't that you checked my blogspot everyday, you were just lucky to be there.

And it eats me away.

last flowers.

I'm dying, slowly.
Want to run away from these realities.

Weeping like a cracked one!

Had a f^%$#&9 nightmare this morning, that's why i woke up early and that's why i could go to work with mom. It wasn't too hard work but i kept sweating like, no, more than a pig!

Source: Youtube (Geboren um zu leben - Unheilig)

Sweating like a pig.
Anyway love the way my hair smells with sweat.

Craving for some ice-cream.

Giờ bị mấy cái đấy ám kinh quá, cứ thấy là phải khuân về cho được:|

Chỉ còn mai nữa thôi...
Buồn.
Buồn hơn cả lúc đang ăn chocopie mà làm rớt cả cái bánh xuống đất.
Nói thế chứ đời ăn chocopie luôn cẩn thận hết mức, chưa bao giờ ngu đến mức làm rớt, mà có rớt thì cũng phải lượm lên ăn, ăn phần ko chạm đất ấy, thế mới hay>:)
Mai đi mua vé xe bít, tranh thủ làm vài vòng luôn chứ ở nhà toàn nghĩ quẩn, dù sao nghĩ quẩn trên xe bít thì vẫn chất hơn, haha/:)

i can't face the evening straight... ♥

"Now i'll take you home, ok?"

My heart skipped a beat the very moment i heard this.
"I don't wanna go home, i wanna be with you, even in an awkward and reluctant way, i just want to sit down and talk about the most silly and the most meaningful things and what you think and what i think... i want to cry, in front of you, instead of sitting in the dark crying alone, i want to hold your hand and not thinking about you holding her hand,...
Is that ok?
No... unfortunately/:)"
It doesn't feel right, at least now.
It'd be a lie.

I'd known, from the beginning, the fear of being lost, confused and the loneliness once i got home.
and i was right.